My Story

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2005 to 2006
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From: Liverpool


♥ Brooke Richardson ♥
Born: 1/11/05
Died: 21/9/06
Age: 10 months
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Brooke was born on 1st November 2005 at 38 weeks weighing a healthy 6lb 2oz. She was mine and my husband Paul's second child and a beautiful little sister for our 12 year old daughter Grace.
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Grace had always asked for a baby brother or sister since she was 8 years old and as her mum i wanted to give her that as many parents would do anything for their children. Grace's wishes were remaining unanswered and by the time Grace was 9 years old we had given up any hope of being able to give her the baby brother or sister that she always wanted.
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Then a week before Grace's 10th birthday i started to feel unwell. I just put this down to a stomach bug. Then on Grace's birthday i was feeling even worse, i couldnt even bend over to help her with her presents. The day after her birthday (23/4/05) i awoke feeling sick. Then i realised, we still hadn't given up the chance of giving Grace a sibling. Could this be morning sickness?
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After taking 3 pregnancy tests to be sure, i told my husband Paul the good news and to this day i can still picture the massive smile on his face when i told him. Then there was Grace, well her little face when i told her she was just gleaming and said "this is the best late birthday present in the world mum!" She started preparing for her little brother or sisters birth and even made a welcome sign.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~When i was 16 weeks pregnant and went for my scan the hospital asked me if i would like to know the sex of my baby, i knew that Grace would want a baby sister more than a baby brother so i said no, as i wanted it to be a surprise.
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My pregnancy was very good until 38 weeks when my waters broke with just under 2 weeks to go and when i held my little baby for the first time i had forgotton the feeling that you get when you have a baby as it had been a long time since Grace was born. The first time Grace got to see her she came in and said proudly "i am a big sister now" and then she asked me if it was a girl or boy and when i told her that she had a little sister she just said one word to sum up her feelings "GREAT"
We let Grace pick her name and she chose Brooke, what a beautiful name, i couldn't pick one better myself
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Brooke was a fantastic little baby, and hardly ever cried, just like Grace. Grace adored her new baby sister and was always taking her for walks to show her off and eventhough i never planned to have another child after Grace until Grace asked me i loved Brooke and was so glad that we had her.
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Brooke was thriving then on the night of 20th September 2006 i put Brooke to bed as usual and Grace gave her a kiss goodnight, we were not to know that this would be the last time the we saw Brooke alive.
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When i woke on 21st september i could sense someting was not right and i will never forget the image that i saw when i went into Brooke's room. She was just lieing there, helpless. I picked her up and just sat down and cried and it wasnt until the paramedics had arrived (which my husband had called) that the just said " I am so sorry... " those words will haunt me forever.
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The doctors couldn't tell me what had happened to Brooke other than the cause of her death was "cot death"?
One happy, loving family was broken apart by a word that doctors used when they were unsure of what really happened. We were left a heartbroken mum and dad. Grace was left without the little sister that she always wanted and to this day we still dont know the real cause other than the simple excuse "cot death"
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